Falling Apart

OK. I was doing good. I dropped Matt off at the recruiters office a little after 4 pm. A little misty eyed, but he couldn't see it because I was wearing sunglasses. He looked a little misty eyed himself. But we both held it together. On the way home I had a brief episode, but talked myself out of it. I was doing real well, until I got a collect call from Matt around 7:30 pm, he would be calling me, reading me the script tomorrow night and he wanted me to answer the phone.......after that I crumbled. He has only been gone for 5 hours....why am I losing it????? I have been trying to keep myself busy tonight...cleaning up...doing laundry.....plotting out TiVo for the new season.........generally distracting myself.........why I am such a sap? Why did I have to have a dominant sap gene? I am sooooooooooooooooooooo sad...........................................